Thursday, June 22, 2006
10:22 PM
i am very happy today but.... i was anxious like mad before i meet him... i was 'late' and this was the first time im meeting him after he set sail to rotterdam,holland... but he was even later... phew... hahahaha....i was very anxious.. no kidding... i was anxious as i am scared he will change... i anxious as i was scared that what happen to my past relationship will happen to my current relationship... i was so anxious that i wish to go home... but part of me is staying put... it didnt want to go.. it wants to see him.. the person im missing for the past 1 1/2 months... so i was walking back and forth waiting for his arrival... then i say this 'guy' smiling from ear to ear at me... it was like he was expecting to see me there... then the face is very familiar to me... and i was shoced.. it was him.. it was really him.. my boyfriend.... his physical looks have changed that i cant even recognised him when i first saw him... he is gorgeous... hahahaha... the person that im missing is standing right in front of me... i gave him a hug that i nvr want to let it go... he is all in the world that i wanted... i love u lotz FADHULI IYLIA.... but i guess my happiness is for a while only... tmr he will be sailing to china.. n he says it will only be for 8 days... i hope its true... coz any longer than that i dont think im tough enough to accept it....