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i got a fren... we were close n happy when we first knew each other.... it was getting on fine between us... spend a lot of time together... sharing stuff with each other... at that time i noe i can rely on her.... wen a yr passed, things starts to happen when we hv different piorities... but still i tried to spend time with her... its was a starting of a rocky friendship... hmmm... den another yr had passed.. but time doesnt makes the gap closer instead its getting bigger coz.. the only piority she has was something else.. didnt even take the initiative to even call... hmmm... maybe i didnt take extra initiative kot.. wahahahahaha.... she seems so distant frm me... its like i didnt even noe who she was... why the drastic change...? its not as if i or the rest had did something wrg... hmmm... one day we will hang out together but when will be the one day? hmmm.. i wonder... after grad....im kissing it goodbye.. to those ppl who had treated my s*#@.... adios....
~hurting in silence..~
i should be studying but end up having this stupid talk.. den there goes my happiness.. haiz.... we had a tiff... goodness... about wat about the future that we are not certain off... haiz... i feel like shit.. honestly... feels like.. all my time will be spend on waiting... haiz... n he tells me that im saying all this like there is no hope... haiz... im a gal... at one point of time... i either think of settling down or not at all... haiz... n sometimes in life.. there are things that are way beyond our reach... its not that i dun want to think positively but... how many percent in life... u will get wat u want? honestly im scared... yes i want u.. in any ways.. but then again... life is so unpredictable.. if u think 7 yrs is not long before we are officially together then u got so thinking to do...
~im just pissed off...~
Im so stress up with ,y sch work.. hv to submit my fyp formal report soon... i did not noe when is this thing get to me... haiz.... i should be studying for the lm test but here im writing this blog of mine.. haiz... i still owe 2 formal reports and 1 datasheets... im stressed about my bf coming back.. i noe i should be happy but then again.. there is so much to be done this weekend n next week... haiz.... i dunno if i got time for him.. in my mind there are so many things to b done... semuanye tertanggunh... haiz.. i dunno la.. lama kelamaan i will go burst.. haiz... n i got some frens that really make my heart pain.. haiz... until i cannot tahan.. i makes me cry even for 1 small thingy.. haiz... i dunno wat i should do... haiz... enlighten me... anyone? haiz...
~im not sure if wat i done is rite but i hope i am.... ~
yesterday was has a mixture of fun and fed-up... hahahaha.. but since its a good day i would just like to emphasis on the good stuff only.. hahahaha.. otay kan.. hahaha... it started of late.. haha.. as usual... janji melayu... hahaha.. so start off at 12.. when it should be starting at 11.30.. hahahaha.. wen to the choa chu kang area first... hmm.. all together 12 ppl.. after cck when to the jurong area.. where most houses is there.. hahahaha... n there were houses that we had to miss coz there is a flu bug jumping ard.. hahahaha.. hmmm.. there are lots of vidoe taken but pic sikit aje.. mane yg patut aje.. hahahaha... on the whole, it was ok-ok la.. the best outing was last 2 yrs... where we really having fun without disputes.. tul tak ain... hehehehehe... n i was back at 9pm.. hahahaha... hmmm.. at nite.. my bf called.. n i was very the very happy la... hahahaha.. n guess wat he will be back this sat... hmmm... cant wait for the arrival.. lets begin the count down.. hahahah...
~forgotten bout the past but once remembered quickly put it in its place...~
hmmm... all alone at home... just waiting to go out... its 10.30am n i feel a slight emptiness... haiz.. my parents had just when out to jb.. balik kampung.. my younger bro went to sch n my elder sis is getting ready for word.. left me alone at home.. but im going out later ard3pm.. hv this gathering of jss students.. frm graduating yr of 1999 to 2004.. hahahah... i wonder wat will it be like... den i also havent decide wat to wear... the gold kebaya or the white one.. hahahaha.. just want to look the best n mesmerise the ppl there... hmmm... looking at the past.. i was a low profile girl.. hid behind my sis n mum as they are studying and working in the same sch.. hahaha... nobody really notice for who i am.. expect for my group of frens.... the only thing they knew about me is that im a model student.. n basically thats it.. hahahaha... but after 3 yrs of graduating... im very certain that they will be asking me who are u n which batch do i come from.. coz it had happen when i turned up for the commitee meeting... back then in sec sch.. i was shy to even talk to ppl i do not noe personally... will try n avoid any conversation.. but now i guess this part of me is gone.. since into poly... my circle of frens is wider than my own sis.. hahahaha... until my mum got a headache because of me.. ' sape2 aje kwn kau'... poly la, sec la, pri la.. mcm2.. hahahaha.. im more extrovet then usually be... pat poly... everywhere i go i will bump to a person i know.. den will just smile or say hi.. my bf was like saying.. ur fren ramai eh merata2 lak tu... hahahaha.. wat to do... hahahahaha... thats basically it.. i will continue today night...
to be continued.....
~letting him go has taken that load out of me... n now im happy n contented with wat i got..~
Yesterday was a blast... hahaha.. jln raya with my poly mates... i wonder if it will be our last since we all will be graduating soon... hahahaha... started quite late.. ard 3pm meet them at pasir ris...something bad happen at pasir ris... i was feeling uneasy about my stomach... when reached at pasir ris mrt, quickly rushed to the toilet.. but i went into the wrg toilet.. i went into the men's toilet... gosh.. i was shocked to see the cubicle.. haiz.. luckily there issint any guy doing their business.. hahahaha.. den i was shocked ahain for the second time... i got my mens.. haiz.. luckily it does not penetrate thru my kain.. if nit i would be rushing back hm n not continue with the outing... hahahaha... tot that the whole day will be a bad day.. haiz... started of frm fad's house... first time there coz last yr i did not go.. hahahaha... den to azri's house in bedok... den to roz... coincidentally both houses cooked the same thing.. bee hoon goreng... den to yanti's house in toa payoh... den to wan's house in bt panjamh and to my house in choa chu kang.. den to redani house in teban and last house was to hafiz house in taman jurong... this outing was great coz there is a lot of laughing going on.. very funning until cant stop laughing.. wan had to send me home coz im nearer to his house.. n i finally reached home ard 12am.. n was dead tired.. hahahaah..here are the pics.... 
