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Its been quite a while since i updated my blog... it has been quite busy for me... since sch starts... hahahaha.. but honestly im not sure wat had made me busy.... there are still many things that i havent finish doing.... haiz.. for example my fyp report.. suppose to be finish it up this week but im not motivated to do it.. so sian... hahahaha...
monday
get a shocking msg in the morning... he wont be contacting me since he will be going to pulau brani for training... hopefully im not the one who drove him away... den sch starts at 11am... had first real lesson of the sch sem with CSW... gone home after that n sleep all the way till near to maghrib... so tired tapi tak tahu ape yg buat penat.. haiz... n did not go to terawih just to watch s'pore idol... result shows... Hady mirza is the next s'pore idol after taufiq batisah... wahhhh.. he so cute n handsome...
tuesday
starts sch late ard 2pm... n it finishes at ard 5pm both lectures has already begun... so boring u noe.. my mind still havent switched on... how... haiz.. so sian... den went home n sleep until near to maghrib... this is the first day i went for solat terawih... do 23 rakaat... n i was overwhelmed.. after so long this is the first time i done it.. wahahahah...
wednesday
sch starts early.. ard 9am.. first lesson of the day.. n it ended ard 12 noon... after sch went out with roz n bib... hafiz was not there coz she has gine back i think.. roz n bib accompanied me to town coz i wanted to buy a birthday gift... but unfortunately the gift i wanted was the last piece so i decided not to buy it... when back after that coz i had appointment with ain ard 2.30pm.. whahahahaha... done some window shopping n catch up on each other life... n its been great.. knowing that i still hv her after wat happens between us... hehehehehe... den malam gi terawih.. n i received a shocking news.. my ex was involve in an accident.. n i guess he had gotten a few stiches... i just hope he get well soon...
thursday
it was the most suckest day of the week coz my timeyble was so damn packed... lecture starts at 8am n ended ard 5pm but luckily it was only pract briefing.. hahahaha... so it ends quite early... hahahaha.. went home n guess wat i do ape lagi aku tido la.. wahahhaaha... but fortunately this particular day was the best day for me in this week... guess wat... (byk nye guessing eh).. hahahaha... my bf is back in town... yeay... he gives me a suprise by appearing in sch... it was so shocking... honestly i did not expect... den we went to west coast park.. coz ive got 2 hours of break n we just want to spend time alone.. n have our privacy.. wahahahaha.. *devil*... it feels so fast that time flies... n already we need to part n he has to be home... but its ok since we will be meeting again ard 8.30pm.. after he has finish his watch (work).. wahahahaha... meet him at harbour front mrt... now thats the reason y i did not go for terwih.. whahahahaha... den we window shop n bought himself a flash card... hahahaha.. luckily we were early if not dont hv the chance to buy that stuff coz the shop is closing soon.. wahahahaha... den we had our last meal together.. since most shop is going to close n mac donalds is the only place left.. we decided to just dine in.. padahal i was actually craving for it.. whahahaha... den it was already late n we decided to go home.. n he sends me home.. we just want to talk somemore so we just seat at the void deck n talk lor... until the clock stuck 12 midnight.. cinderella needs to go back.. wahahahaha... but that does not stops me to call him after i reach home... talk to him until 2.30am.... n by then i was super duper tired... n fell aspleep... coz had to wake up ard 4am for sahur... after sahur keeps msg him also but not fpor long b4 i snooze off...wahahahaha.. kesian die.. maybe tgh tunggu my msg...
friday
briefing was suppose to start at 8am but the lecturer wants to start at 9am.. it was good but i received my first 'scholding' on this very day.. haiz... somehow i felt that he holds grudges on me... dunno wat did i do...just so very pissed off... haiz.. the briefing was long.. n boring... after the briefing i tried calling my bf... n unfortunately i guess he was out of singapore waters... haiz.. i start missing him already... i need him.. he says its good that we suffer now rather than later... who wouldnt want to have a better life??? den after sch ard 12noon went to town again to find the birthday gift n also buy my hari raya shoe.. wahahahah... but i bought the gift but the shoe was out of stock.. darn it... i love it so much.. tapi takpe kan takde rezeki... wahahahaha... went home after that coz i was tired... dunno y during the fasting month i was tired? so much so that i need to take a nap... while i was in the train wondering... someone that i was not expecting calls... he needs to borrow money from me coz he left his wallet n hp at his training base... i would help any fren in need... so i met him up n pass him the money... i nvr thought that i will ever met him again... n today i met him.. as a fine gesture he walks me home before he boarded the taxi ard my place... n he reaches home 20min after buka.. luckily i ask him to buy drinks so that he could break fast in the cab... at night gone for terawih but 8 rakaat aje dah pancit.... hahahaha.. decided to go hm but forget to take the keys... n hv to wait at the void deck.. mcm budak tak betul.. wahahahaha... called everyone up so that they will keep me company but i was only able to talk for short mins as they have to attend to something.. haiz... when i reach home.. i snooze off.. wahahahahaha...
saturday
today we had a family gathering at my place.. all my relatives will be coming here to break fast together.. isnt that great.. wahahahaha.. like this kind of family gathering.. hehehe... n happy birthday to my elder sis...hurray... but dunno how its going to turn out... just hope today will be great.. chao...
HeaveN
Oh - thinkin' about all our younger years
There was only you and me
We were young and wild and free
Now nothin' can take you away from me
We bin down that road before
But that's over now
You keep me comin' back for more
Baby you're all that I want
When you're lyin' here in my arms
I'm findin' it hard to believe
We're in heaven
And love is all that I need
And I found it there in your heart
It isn't too hard to see
We're in heaven
Oh - once in your life you find someone
Who will turn your world around
Bring you up when you're feelin' down
Ya - nothin' could change what you mean to me
Oh there's lots that I could say
But just hold me now
Cause our love will light the way
N' baby you're all that I want
When you're lyin' here in my arms
I'm findin' it hard to believe
We're in heaven
And love is all that I need
And I found it there in your heart
It isn't too hard to see
We're in heaven
I've bin waitin' for so long
For something to arrive
For love to come along
Now our dreams are comin' true
Through the good times and the bad
Ya - I'll be standin' there by you
First day in sch was weird... hahahaha.. not so looking forward lor.. hahahaha... n not so me... who usually is very enthu in going to sch... i was frantically finding my lost soul... body there but soul was dunno where... haiz... thinking of my bf... when he came back wat we r going to do n how am i going to 'cabot' frm sch.... hahahaha.. there once again its not me.... i guess environment has change the old ain to new ain.. that i doesnt really like... hmmm... not that i hate myself but it just that i dont like the changes in me... if the change is benefited to me then its fine but these changes does not benefited myself at all... rather bring me continuous problem... i guess my shoulder is burden by the fact that i hv drove ppl to go on 'hiding'... i would like to apologised to those im hurt them with my action...
~im a forbidden fruit that can only be seen not eaten... but it doesnt stop the children of Adam to eat it~
Im going from bad to worst.... haiz.... keep having flash back that im not suppose to even think off... im forcing myself not to think of it... but the thing is it keeps coming back... its like haunting me... haiz.. wat i should do so that it does not haunt me anymore... haiz... i really am at a lost... i dunno how to face this anymore... haiz....
~its easier said than done... by it will always be the past.. and have to let bygones be bygones...~
Its hard... but i know i need to move on... n he too needs to move on... it wasnt easy for me but im not sure bout him... but honestly i trusted u... nvr did i doubt u... maybe im just doubting myslef but not u... in a short period we known each other i dont think its enough for us to know each other well... i guess this is the best way to end everything... i wish u well.. may u find the gal of ur dreams... n i will nvr forget u... esp ur birthday.. hahahaha... maybe i will give u a suprise birthday gift.. insya-allah... i hope u will not forget me also.... *peace*
~if we r fated to meet again then im looking forward to it...~
My shoulder hurts a lot due to the bruise ive got on wed... the cut is getting bigger n bigger each day... the pain also getting worst.. haiz... i think it will leave with an ugly scar.. haiz.. i think im cursed with bad luck... so many things happen to me in short 1 week... haiz.. ive hurt my shoulder, my back, my thigh, my lastly my big toe.. ouch.. that hurts.. a lot u know... haiz... feels like shouting but it wont hv any diff... hahahahah.... i wonder... there are too many changes in my life... n it had change me... some ppl may like it n some ppl dont... n honestly i dont like the change in me.. wat had happened to the old me???? haiz... kalau la dunia ini takde cobaan mungkin dunia ini akan menjadi sunyi tapi terlalu byk akan menjadi beban... haiz...
~wondering wat will happen next....~
Its been a long time since i have this kinda of fun with my sisters... hehehehe... today we went down to downtown east to celebrate yao wai's a.k.a bibah birthday... wahahahaha.... mcm biasa i was late to meet hafiz pat j.e.. hehehe ... need to settle something first before i go out of the house.. i manage to stay out of trouble but i guess this is not the end of the prob... its only the beginning... hahahah... all i neeed to do is to resist the temptation of picking up his calls n replying his msgs... n i will be all over before i knew it.. hehehehe.. so celebrated bibah's birthday pat pasir ris... both her kek at bengawan solo... quite nice but not as nice from polar puffs.. hahaha... have the sabo menyabo pat tepi pantai... hahahaha.. it was fun n dirty... hahahaha... den after eating the cake we proceed on to the Wild Wild Wet... hahahaha.. first time for all of us.. hahahaha.. cool sia.. coz the place was 'consider' empty.. hahahaha... very the very lengang.. hahahaha.. coz ppl are all busy mugging for exams... hahahaha.. padan muka.. beban aku dah habis dah... hahaha... i really like shiok river n ular-lah... hahaha esp the shiok river... can just spend the whole day there... just floating on the tube.. hahahaha... den we den proceed to sakura international to enjoy our dinner.. hahahaha... dah lapar2 kan.. semua pun sebat.. hahahaha.. but im not that daring.. tak try byk benda.. hahahaha... just eat wat i can eat... hahahaha... but something happen at the restraunt.. hahahah... this waiter dunno y likes to have small talks with me... even when im day dreaming he notice it.. gila kan tapi benar..hahaha... but its ok i got other better things to take care off... hahahahaha,,, so bo layan.. hahahaha.. when we have done eating its time to leave the place... go home la wat else.. hahahaha.. by the end of the day it was super super tired.. hahahaha... the swimming n the journey make it so tired.. wahahahahah... n now off to snooze... bye... good nights...
~after opening it up.. i felt a lot better.. much better than before...~
Hmmm.... 19 sept 2006.... i spent the rest of my day after my project with my bestie, omar... i was heavily stressed with stuff... hahaha.. biasa la fyp, relationships n others.. hehehehehe... but i manage to sort it out yesterday... thanks omar.. u helped me... n im grateful... hehehehe... meet him ard 6 plus pm at west coast after fyp.. hahaha... den he take his own sweet time sia.. still can spent time termenung pat toilet... bluek... hahahaha... den we headed of to esplanade.. i really want to go there n find the peace i needed... hahaha... but first must fill my hungry stomach... hahaha.. ape lagi suruh die belanja la since he drag me all da way from boon lay to west coast n still hv to wait for him.. hahahaha... we had our dinner.. or my dinner at bk marina square... coz we always eat long john silver when we go out.. hahahaha... take my time eating while talking or pouring my hearts out to him... hahahaha... den when im done.. we wanted to go to esplanade but too bad bcoz of the imf thingy there are many police officers gurding the esplanade... merepek sia... den kite headed to some other place.. tak tahu mane.. hahahaha... we just stop n sit down at the benches along the river opposite fullerton hotel.. the one near to raffles place mrt station... we sat n i show him all the pics in my picture folder... hahahaha... we had a great time laughing at the nonsense picture.. especially my face.. somehow i dont like the pic that was taken.. wahahahahah... den it comes to this part.. the part that i show him wat i give my bf as a birthday present... he said that if he was my bf he would be touched... n i know my bf is touched by an angel (me).. hahahaha... i forget the true essence of relationships... n im sorry to my bf.. coz i have done too many wrg doings to him... i should treasure my relationship n not break it.. we hv come a long way.... somehow i forgot that he is the most sensitive, caring, understanding, loving, romantic bf i ever had.. wat more can i ask... haiz.. i really need u.... n i shouldnt hv done wat i done... betul ckp liz im not mature regarding love... n i should learnt it frm u (iylia).. ok enough2.. hahaha.. back to story... after watching the video clip, its time for us to go hm.. hahahaha... it was already 9.30pm.. hehehe... we were walking to raffles place mrt station.. to get there we need take the escalator down.. den there was these 4 police officer.. tgh buat rounding gak nye.. was taking the escalator up... they were all facing at us (me n omar) lor.. i was talking to omar all the way.. n i wasnt looking at them until the last minute.. hahaha... just to be sure they r not him.. hahahaha... omar was like die org tgk u tu.. blah blah blah.. hahahaha... den he send hm.. coz i was totally tired i guess... dah tak larat nak pikul tu lappy... hahahaha... but all in all i really enjoy the evening out.. thanks ya.. i really need that... i love my hubby....!!!!! hahahahaha...
~sometimes when i stray to far... i hope u can quickly catch me back....~
Why is it hard for me to stick to my own decision...!!! the person i have to hate is myself.... why has this have to happen to me again and again.. gosh i hate it... all that i felt is pain... as if im inflicting the pain on myself... haiz... my only solution is HIM... but he doesnt not want to talk to me... he was so F@#* tup angry with me that he is keeping quiet... n his silence is my only making the pain worse... i could jolly well kept that secret but i choose to tell... i just doesnt want myself to be consumed by guilt one day.... n will be harder for the both of us... haiz... i tak tahu nak buat mcm mane lagi... if u love me just come back to me...
~i've done everything that i've could to prevent this thing from happening.. trust me for this last time... but i cant stop ppl from loving me more... just dont leave me....~
Do u have to do this always? why do u have to pun more guilt on my shoulder? doesnt i carry enough guilt to start with.... i was ok the whole day without u msg... den u start msg.. den msg became to talk on the phone.. n now ur showing tantrums at me... wat do u treat me ar? in one day i have to go thru this roller coaster ride of emotions... i tunggu jawapan seseorg mcm buah tak jatuh2... maybe i deserve it.... haiz...
Life is so unpredictable... one day ur happy n the next ur totally down... haiz... itu di namakan puratan hidup... im not sure if im able to face this world anymore... its just so sakit hati... maybe memang dah nasib badan... aku yg gali kubur aku.. aku yg tanam diri ku sendiri... membuat keputusan itu susah.. lagi susah utk memegang pada keputusan itu... 'ya allah.. tolong la hambamu ini... cekalkan la hati hambamu ini.. dan berkati lah hiupku ini... amin...'
~ just glad that there are ppl who understands me... when i really need that... ~
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I felt relieve but still anxious... i just want to hv that food binge.... but luckily i do not hv any tibits at home or else i will be fatty ain... hahahahaha... if only anyone knew wat i feel n wat i have to go thru... obviously they will be blaming on me... i cannot deny that its my fault but its all due to situation... i guess its all predetermined... im just a human i make mistakes n tons of mistakes im talking about... i beg for forgiveness to those ppl i have hurt... the one that i stole their hearts.. haiz...
~i wished to shout but my voice is stuck in my throat... i wish to cry but my eyes is dry... i want to let it all out but there is no one to talk too... my world is so dark.. can anyone shine me some light?????~
told him the truth.. y the sudden change in me.. i hope he will accept it... the rest is up to him....
We the people fight for our existence
We don't claim to be perfect but we're free
We dream our dreams alone with no resistance
Fadin' like the stars we wish to be
Y'know I didn't mean
What I just said
But my god woke up on the wrong side of his bed
And it just don't matter now
'Cause Little by little
We gave you everything you ever dreamed of
Little by little
The wheels of your life they're slowly fallin off
Little by little
You have to give it all in all your life
And all the time I just ask myself why you really here?
True perfection has to be imperfect
I know that that sounds foolish but it's true
The day has come and now you'll have to accept
The life inside your head we give to you
Y'know I didn't mean
What I just said
But my god woke up on the wrong side of his bed
And it just don't matter now
'Cause Little by little
We gave you everything you ever dreamed of
Little by little
The wheels of your life they're slowly fallin off
Little by little
You have to give it all in all your life
And all the time I just ask myself why you really here?
Hey!!!
Little by little
We gave you everything you ever dreamed of
Little by little
The wheels of your life they're slowly fallin off
Little by little you have to give it all in all your life
And all the time I just ask myself why you're really here?
Why am I really here?
Why am I really here?a fren ask me to to hear this song but i cant catch the meaning accept for i sentence... 'And all the time I just ask myself why you're really here?'
its so hard for me to hate u.. no matter wat u did i will still forgive u... i will need sometime away from u if u want.. i will try to avoid talking to u if u want but dont choose to be my enemy coz its really hurt... hurts like somebody take a knife n slowly tearing my heart... i dont wish to end this friendship... but if u choose to i got nothing to say... i really treasure u...
i was having my sahur when he msg me.. it took me sometime before replying back the msg...half of me just want to keep mum but the other is jumpin to reply to his msg...i tot i want to settle the problem between us.. even if we separate, at least we separate in good ways... haiz... den when i was in sch(ntu)... doing my fyp he msg again.. he wanted to meet... coz i accidentally has his earpiece n he has mine... its fine with me... n he ask me if i could accompany accompany him for a while as he is stressed n faced with problem... honestly i wished to give a fren a support but i refrained myself frm replying in the msg.. i just say giv eme time to think... i was suppose to meet him at starbucks at cityhall... ard 2.45pm... i reached there ard 2.15pm.. i know i was early n as i waited for him i read my book... its 2.45pm.. his presence is yet to be seen... tried calling him.. tried msging him.. but to no response... i was fasting n i am very tired... but its ok.. for a fren sake... one hour has past but still no presence of him... den he called saying that he need to send keys to his sis at loyang... n was on the way meeting me... den i say ok i will wait for u.. n pls come asap... tired of sitting down n read my novel, i wanted to take a stroll at raffles city link... while taking that stoll... he msg me asking me to meet him at bedok coz something crop up at home... he is like taking my patience slowly... ok fine i went down to bedok to give him his stuff since im da one who make to mistake in the first place... upon reaching bedok i called him but he never pick up n my hp batt is going to be dead... he wants me to find him at bedok interchange where i obviously i dunno where issit... haiz.. he ask me to wait 5mins at the control station... by then i had wasted 2 hours of my time waiting for him... he came.. like 20mins after...i guess he says sorry but i refused to talk to him as im scared i might just shout at him... after swapping the stuff.. he didnt say anything else except pat on my shoulder.. do u know wat i feel... i waited 2 hours just to get that... as i was facing my back on him n was walking towards the entrance of mrt, i cried.. yes i cried.. i felt that he does not appreciate me as a fren but take advantage my kindness.. i felt so angry that i cried.. n i was lost at that time...at the platform i was so lost that i took the wrg train.. im suppose to take train to boon lay but i took the train to pasir ris... i only realised that im in the wrg train when the train stops at tampines n it was too late by then as the door is closing... i wanted to cry my heart out.. but too ashamed to do that.. my hp was dead n i got no one to let go what i feel in side... i hate u.. it doesnt have to end like this... y cant we be frens.. is making us enemy the only way out? its so painful... i noe u feel the same way too.. if only wat i saw frm u is real... u r special.. but y must u give me that hope n snatch it back frm me... pain is all that is left with me... n i hope u regretted the decision u make one day....
~ love without pain is nothing but the pain is unbearable~
today was one of my moody days... hate to admit it but i think im lacking of sleep.. hahahaha... this past few days i have been on th ephone till late mornings... n i talk to my bf till early hours... until my father bingit.. wahahahahah... go to ntu do fyp.. it sucks u know but still needs to do... hahahaha... den went to jp to eat at banquet.. same jugak.. mkn chicken noodle aje.. wahahahaha... den goes to the diy shop to buy some filters... den the shop lady gives me a change of extra $30 n i need to tell her twice b4 get the right change.. wahahahaha.. i know im an honest person..awwww.. hahahaha... den went home straight coz omar who had made plans with me decided to cancel our outing together.. wahahahha... but its ok.. i was tired anyways... reach hm aje.. terus tido.. hahahaha.. sampai maghrib.. den 'buka puasa' wahahahaha... i was totally bored at hm... so watch this walk to remember dvd for the dunno how many times... wahahahaha.. so touching... i just wish the ppl who loved me will just stick with me thru thick n thin... while watching the dvd my mum came home with my baju raya.. it was gorgeous... it fits into my body very nicely... i felt like i was a princess... hahahaha.. perasaan aje.. but i just wish i could share it with someone so meaning ful.. hehehehehe... love u... n will always do...
Quote:
Love is always patience and kind… It is never jealous… Love is never boastful nor conceded... It is never rude or selfish… It does not take offence and it is not resentful…Love takes no pleasure in other people sins but the delights in the truth... It is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope and doing towards... Wat eva comes..
its been a long time since i feel like this.. mcm lapang dada... when i share it with somebody that really can give me the attention i needed.. im not making use of him but his presence is really meaning ful to me... we laugh n joke like there is no problem in our minds... its like we are in our own secret world... hahahaha... i wished that my probs will just go away... didnt know that i cant handle 1 easy problem... somehow im missing my bf greatly but didnt know how to get to him also... i miss him so much that it stops me of having much more the miss feelings added in... haiz... this is the point that i need to decide... its like im expecting it but does not expect to be right near my face... haiz... i guess i need to be wat i use to be...
~its so hard to make decision but the decision is right infront of u~
yesterday was my 14mth anniversary.. hehehehe.. did nothing.. no celebration as u know he is not here.. but wat if his here? where will we be celebrating our anniversary? hmmm... i think we will be sitting at kallang waterfrant coz thats is our main dating place.. wahahaha... we had a great talk there.. we had his birthday celebration n etc.. i miss his though.. i just want him to come back den i guess all my problem will be gone.. haiz.. if only he knew wat was in my heart n mind...
Slack my way thru all morning... den went out to johore bahru with my parents... when to eat at this place called t.g.i.Friday's.. wahahahaha...
Ordered:
i)Main Course
Fried Calamari
BBQ Roasted Chicken
Citrus Shortribs
Shrimp & New York S.Steak
Fish & Chips
ii)Drinks
Oreo Speedwagn
Banana Shake
Vanilla Shake
Ultimate Virgin Margereta (non-alcoholic)
iii)Dessert
Friday's Sundae
listing out the food we ate seems so little but 1 plate is like two ppl eat lor... cant even finish it lor... hahahaha.. had to give it to my brothers.. hahahaha... off all food rite i like the Friday's Sundae... its consist of 3 scoops of ice-cream with whip cream n almonds n caramel n camarel n caramel... wahahahha.. i love the caramel part... so nice n sweet... wahahahaha... by the eat of the whole thing i was very full... so is siblings and my mum... wahahahaha... if u give us a bed rite.. we can snooze off already.. bcoz we are too full to even walk... wahahahaha... we still when down to city square to shop for my brother's shoe... went to look for my hari raya shoe but i dont really like the design.. wahahaha.. still likes the shoe from americaya... so pester my mum to buy me the shoe i like.. wahahahaha.. kan best irritate org nak dptkan benda... wahahahaha... after buying the shoe, we went back home... so tired, still so full.. wahahahaha.. reach hm ard 8pm like dat..
~when ur stomach is full u tink nothing but going to sleep... wahahahahahaha~
its 12.22am... im very tired but there is someone on my mind... he is my pillar of strength he is my everything... i just remembered all the memories n had with him... n maybe the future we are going thru... we had come a long way in our relationshp... this is different kinda of feelings we had compared with our past relationships... there are many hurdles that we had to leap b4 standing at this point now... n the most complex situation is when we are buidling this relationship... back then, there were many party that are involve in oyr relationships... both our ex(s), frens n third party... since it was the start, we doesnt have a good foundation.... our new relationship is badly affected n almost collapse at that time.... but there is something about each other that we cant let go off... n we ended up reconcile... n until now we havent had a big fight since we already feel the lost of our love once.. making us not taking for granted the relationship wat we hv now... im contented to have him (FADHULI IYLIA) as my bf... he has changed a lot for me n i dunno if i got change for the better for him... he had stop smoking bcoz i was allergic to cigarette smoke... n he has been less spend thrif when he was with me.. i love him lots.. n im missing him badly.... i need him but his away... n i hope patience is always with me... so i will not give up on my better half...
The start of the day was the suckest.... there is this bitch (obviously a minah) msg me asking lots n lots of question... it started as polite msgs but as the conversation goes on she keep making me the villain of breaking up her relationship... honestly its not my fault bitch... firstly i do not know ur name or how u look like n importantly i dont know YOU... secondly im not close to ur bf... i only hang ard with him if my bf is present... i only contacts him if i need to enquire about my bf... as far as im concern im not the one who cause ur relationship to breaks... u only talk to me for less than 1 hour n ur putting the whole blame on me.. ur a bitch n always a bitch... BITCH...!!! im more frustrated when u drag my bf in this matter.... he was not here n u have to drag him in... wat stupid bitch ar u.. u F#@* off...
im not in the mood to go to the home academy open house.. but since i promise ain i go.. i will stick to it... first impression... it was big n nice... but feels that something is missing... hahaha... u noe wats missing in action? is the police officers.. wahahahaha... not that i forget bout my bf... its just that i wish my future husband is one of the man in uniforms.. wahahahahaha.... n my bf is man in uniform.. wahahaha.. maybe thats y i first like him for.. was roaming ard the site... den met this unexpected person... my yr 1 poly mate who drop out of sch... he is now serving his ns... hehehe... quick recap... his name is shariezad... classmates in yr 1 poly... he is a clever guy but he has a bad temper but a good fren.. hehehehehe.. we used to communicate alot but since he drop out frm sch i do not have any newsfrom him until now... wahahahhaha... back to story... he looks smart n abit handsome wearing his uniform... wahahahaha... we did exchange no.. so easy to exchange news of each other... im gald ive met an old fren... wish him all the best in serving his ns....
went back home after seeing the singapore idols on the stage.. wahahahhahahaa... hady mirza u rocks!!! n i was dead tired... snooze....
~i can be easily hurt by wat others say but im not scared to face it~
