Thursday, January 18, 2007
4:47 PM
Things started to go wrong.. im not sure its my temper or its because of other people.. im so vexed... there so many things in my mind... exams... graduation.. frens... boyfriends... haiz.... i just want to score for exams... but i have a low self esteem.. i dont think i can perform better than wat i want to... am i putting too much pressure on myself? haiz... graduation... when my frens are busy finding ideal jobs for themselves.. i was sitting there thinking and wondering wat i really want... on my shoulder i have my own freedom of working but on the other shoulder, i have my mum's hope that i enter the uni... that is y i pushed myself to hard that im breaking apart... frens... i just dont like wats happening between me n my frens n i dont like to be taken advantage off just because we r frens... im not the same like ur other fren that will spoon feed u with infomation as when u need it.... im just not... i believe in being fair.. haiz... regarding my bf.. haiz... i was very frustrated with his attitude of not being punctual... haiz.. that leads to endless quarrel... n im very tired of it.. i dunno when it will stop... as the stress increase my head start spinning.. haiiz... help me release my stress... somebody...~i dont want to lose anything but i guess i will somehow....~