I dunno how to describe wat im going thru yesterday... I just know its a very bad day.. haiz.. Is controlling my emotion is a bad thing.. I tried not to be affected by it but the more I tried to control it the more pain it brings to my chest... Its like my heart is expanding but there is no enough space for it to expand.. Thats when my chest hurts.. Its scares me that it hurts... Then I started to let go of my emotion.. Accept the fact that Im truely hurt by wats going on...And releases drops of tears... Only then i felt relieve... Somehow I do need your presence to feel motivated.. School is already tough as it is... Accepting the fact that your retreating is tougher...